So this weekend I’ve been fighting The Blahs. You know, where even the things you like to do you don’t feel like doing. I didn’t dare say ‘I’m bored’ because I still fear my mom will pop out of nowhere and dump a basket of laundry on me to fold. So, I wandered around all weekend, moping.
When I started this blog, I had set a goal for myself of writing once a week. It was a completely self-motivating goal, and one with the purpose of pulling me closer to God. Spend some quiet time in prayer, search the scriptures for ideas He laid on my heart, and practice my writing. All things I love, all things that are helping me to grow in my relationship with God. And just as I’m starting to enjoy it, BAM, the Blahs...I couldn’t even muster up a sentence. I couldn’t even call it Writer’s Block because I didn’t have the desire to write.
So I sat at my computer today, deciding I’d just sit to type and come up with something brilliant. Yeah, I’ve got nothing. How’s that for honesty? I even started to peck away, hoping that something would come, and still…..nothing. Not just nothing, even an absence of wanting something. I had just thought to myself “what would it really matter if this week I didn’t follow through?”, when it hit me - yep, another ‘love shove’. Not following through was exactly what satan wanted. (Yes, I know ‘satan’ is a name, and by English writing standards is thus considered a proper noun that should be capitalized. I however, find him undeserving of such a thing.) Anyway…
There are so many times in our lives where we don’t ‘feel’ like doing what we are supposed to be doing. And, as adults, isn’t that our choice? But, as a Christian we can’t play by those rules. God’s word clearly says, “Simply let your ‘Yes’ be ‘Yes,’ and your ‘No,’ ‘No,’” (Matthew 5:37). He doesn’t say it only counts when I feel like it, or when I’ve made the promise to someone other than myself.
Then there’s also the point I made a few weeks ago. The spirit of God lives within me. So, I should be exhibiting His spirit, right? When I don’t keep my commitments I’m failing on that, as one of the Fruits of the Spirit is faithfulness (check out Galatians 5:22). When I looked up faithfulness I found this definition: “Adhering firmly and devotedly, as to a person, cause or idea; loyal”. Again, I searched, and nowhere could I find a scripture that says I only have to fulfill that definition when I feel like it.
I guess the point I am trying to make is that there are many, many times where I don’t feel like doing something I’ve already committed to doing. It doesn’t matter how big the commitment or who it was made to, I am called to be faithful. How would we like it if God gave into The Blahs?
“But God, you promised your provision.”
“Hmmm, yeah, not feeling it today. Sorry.”
“But God, you said your angels will guard me in all my ways.”
“Well Gabe and Mike just weren’t feeling it today. Good luck, I’m sure you understand.”
We are a generation locked into only doing what feels good at the moment. What we don’t realize is that puts us right where satan wants us. Not only do we become unreliable to people around us, but we never grow, and we never help anyone besides ourselves. Is that really who we want to be? Is that really who God wants us to be? I realized my answer for both of those questions is NO. And I also realized something else. Sometimes the first step is the hardest, but once you’ve taken it you get hungry for more. The Blahs will strike, they always do, but all I need to do is walk away from them and walk towards God. He’ll meet me every time.