Oh sure, I cloaked my ignoral in a "if you really want me to do it, then give me a shout-out", and when He didn't I conveniently figured He wasn't really calling me out of my comfort zone.
But He was--and He and I both knew it. (No hiding my heart from Him, He sees it all)
What's so amazing is after the moment passed and I left the situation, He confirmed the calling. AFTER I disobeyed. And I looked up and said, "Really? Now you're confirming it?"
And He replied, "I'm not confirming anything you didn't already know. You simply chose not to act and I'm showing you what you missed."
Ouch.
Sometimes the truth hurts. But it's sure necessary for growth. Because let me tell you, after grieving that moment I resolved to never do that same thing again. And while I would have rather grown my faith by leaping out in it, this time I guess I chose to do it the hard way.
***Sigh***We are going to be human. We are going to mess up. Be frail. Need a re-do. And then still mess up again. And yes, sometimes it's even in the same area. Here's the amazing thing though, even as I grieved, His grace covered me. He reminded me that His grace was enough, that His mercies are new every morning, every hour, every second if need be. He reminded me that I can do ALL things through Him who strengthens me--including leaping out of my comfort zone. Then He reminded me of all the times I've done that, overshadowing my mess-up. Because He's God. And He loves me. And He's sees my successes, not my failures.And He sees you the same way. So if you're dealing with a mess-up this morning remember His mercy is NEW right now. We may fail a thousand times, but His mercy remains. And you can have a re-do right this very moment. Just ask Him:)
I LOVE this, Susan. For whatever reason, I can be especially reflective on Mondays...there's something so refreshing (though sometimes daunting, too) about starting a new week. Thing is, it generally doesn't take long for me to mess-up once a new week starts...whether it's a poor attitude about the day job or a goal I don't meet, it's SO easy to fall into that, "I failed, I failed, I failed again" misery. But like you said, there's such joy in knowing we're covered by God's grace. And that's what I want to cling to--His grace, not my own successes or lack thereof.
ReplyDeleteAmen, Melissa:) Because as hard as I try, I still mess-up, which is why I am so in love with His grace.
DeleteThank you for using your "mess-up" to bring encouragement to others, Susan. Keepin' it real! I love that! And I agree 100% with what Melissa said; I couldn't have said it better myself. :)
ReplyDeleteHope you have a blessed week, Susan!
Uh-huh, she did put it well, didn't she! Praying you have a great week, too - school's got to be about out. You ready for summer?!
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